This week, I played in an intramural soccer game for the first time since tenth grade. I was really excited because I’ve always loved playing soccer and I’ve always wanted to get involved at college but for some reason it’s just never happened, so I’m super glad I got the chance my senior year. Also this week is the start of most of the clubs and student organisations on campus. It’s a busy time—I had four meetings tonight, and three of them overlapped schedule-wise so I was rushing all over trying to at least stop into all of them—but again, I’m glad to be involved in some new things and some old favourites.
It got me thinking, though, about the reason it’s taken me until senior year to get involved in some of these organisations I’ve always been interested in. And then I thought about the reason I never played anything other than intramural soccer even though it was my favourite sport and I probably would’ve enjoyed trying out for a more competitive level. The problem was this: travel soccer takes a lot of time, I played four other sports in the ten years I was an intramural soccer player, and I was afraid of quitting. It’s the reason I took dance classes for five years even though I hated them, the reason I ran track for two years although I would’ve much preferred to spend my time practising soccer. I just didn’t want to quit. Even though I knew nobody would get mad at me, not my coaches or my parents, I felt like if I quit I would be letting other people—and myself—down.
The same thing has happened with clubs in the past. I found myself dragging myself to meetings, unenthusiastic about the issues and the events, but unwilling to give it up. Because I felt like I had an obligation, like people would judge me for quitting, even if it was to dedicate my time to things that are more interesting.
But no more. Sure, there are things I can’t give up that I would prefer not to do, but as far as groups and activities I do for my own enjoyment? I’m going to do the things I actually enjoy. It’s my senior year, and I’m making an effort to try new things—I’m getting involved in organisations I feel dedicated, not obligated to, and I’m not going to be afraid to give up some that just don’t interest me. Nobody likes to quit, but sometimes it’s necessary for stress relief or general happiness, and I’m going to try to remember that.
Lead Her Intern, Campus Calm™