Since I’m new to blogging, I’m just going to talk about my day, it’s a good place to start.
So I recently have been going through painful drama with my ex-boyfriend, so I’ve been dealing with a lot of sadness. Just generally not feeling good enough, wishing something were different about me, blah blah blah. Maybe some of y’all know how that goes. But either way, I am absolutely certain that these types of feelings SUCK. Not just a little bit, but in a ruin-your-day and make you feel like s-h-i-t kind of way.
So I’ve made some changes. I know that there is a great amount of wisdom within everyone, if only we could be silent enough to listen. Giving yourself some leeway to be sad, to be upset, to NOT try to be perfect has been incredibly liberating, and has actually lightened the heavy feeling in my chest. Yeah, my life is hard, I’m not as perfectly social as I wish I were, and I most definitely have my awkward moments. But hey, that’s what makes me me and though it’s taken me a long time to realize how happy I am with myself, I understand now that the journey I’m on (sorry for the corniness…if that’s a word) has led to this place, for better or for worse. Strength comes from within, and you can’t really learn that strength until you have no other choice. EVERYONE has this within them, and life can really be beautiful as long as you have genuine faith in yourself.
So I know all this is super cheesy, but that’s the direction I’ve been going in for the last couple days, just ruminating on all my thoughts and worries. But thankfully, today I went horseback riding! I know, may not be that exciting for some but I am absolutely in love with everything about horses, and nothing makes me happier than being on a humble friendly ranch with lovely people and horses that want nothing more than to run around a meadow. So anywho, today was a most excellent today, and reminded me that doing things for myself is incredibly important. Being out on that ranch gave me back my feeling of independence that I used to feel more strongly a couple years ago. A sense of strength that sometimes gets lost in the day to day grind.
Never forget to see the humor in life, and see it as a journey.
Maybe you lovely people out there in the world of the internet could comment about how you deal with heartbreak, and how you find your independence? I would be fascinated. It’s a hard process, but it tells you more about yourself than any relationship every could, I believe at least.
Until next saturday my friends! <3
LeadHer™ Intern, Campus Calm™
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